I have pain, and I have today. Life is fragile; here today, gone tomorrow. Confronted with health complications, I realize more than ever my need for love. My need to love others today, and my need to allow others to love me today. To be efficient in love today is my call and challenge. I wrestle with self pity and fear wondering if my body will recover; if the months ahead will be filled with torment. As I stumble along with my emotions today, I lean into love today.